Here

Im the dot in the middle of the circle. Surrounded by everything happening and not even aware that im isolating myself from it all. Im the fly on the peice of bread that gets shood away but keeps comming back because it doesnt understand. Im the accidental footprints in the freshly poured concrete. There not suppossed to be there but the presence of them is humorous and somewhat...ok. Im the paint brush drownding in the cup of water. Barely used but tough on the edges. Im the tree in the back yard that barely shades anything. But still adds green to the landscape. Im....here.

Winter of Homosapien

Cold wet fingers, wrapped tightly around a blanket. Falling off bare shoulders. Water dripping from dark shadowy trees. Leaves crunching beneath each foot step. Lips quivering. Eyes searching, wanting deperatly to close. Entire body, just wanting...to shut down. Fire. Aglow within. Melting off the ice clung to your hair. Sending paths of warmth up and down your arms. Filling you with liquid gold. Blanket falls to the ground. The earth opens up. Snow dissapears grass fingers its way up. Sun shining. Nothing to cover you. Completely natural. Smiling. It's summer.

having my moments of expression (corny as they may be)

Your voice sweeps me away. As an ocean breeze dusts the earth with sand.
Im perfectly fine lying here on this wave. Letting the sun beat down on me.
Your all I need. The last peice to make me feel whole. Ill let it rain. let it fill plastic bowls
and overflow into my heart. Ill let it build inside until i cant contain it anymore and the only option is to smile, and dance, and sing. I really do. Love you.

Cross Word

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Across the universe

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup.

hanging

a rope around the neck hands grabbing wrists a cliff a building a cave feet dangling unsure scared you have no control all you can do, is hang on and hope

Breathe

Where am I? Head throbbing. Hammer pounding at my temples. Blood crawling through my viens, stopping at my legs. My legs. Where were they? Eyes Closed. Slowly, slowly. Come on open. No. Too painful. Voices. Wispering. The beeping of a machine close to my head. Way too loud. I knew that sound. Slow and steady. My heart. It was beating. I was sure of it. But I couldnt feel it. Maybe if i touch it. But my hand would not move. No. Laying at my sides. I couldnt see them. Couldnt feel them. What is happening? "It's been two weeks" I strained to make out the voice. Unrecognizable "I dont care" That voice was all too familiar. It brought tears to My eyes. Tears I didnt have. It was his voice. He placed a shaky hand on my face. I could feel that. Thank god. Bright Florecsent lights peirced through my closed eyes. Blinded me. Shapes moving around. People leaning over me. Air conditioner blowing at me. Goosebumps on my shoulders. Scrathy material covering them. I could feel that too. Panic. What happened. "Leave." His voice craked. He sounded upset. People protesting. Then the unfamiliar voice. "Shes better off dead." I heard a hard THUMP. The sound of his fist hitting the doctors jaw. I knew it. Gasps. Probably from my sister and mother. "I said Leave" Footsteps shuffling out. Door slamming shut. He sat down on the bed next to me. I wished I could open My eyes. See his face. Please god. Please. I beg you. Just let me see his face. I couldnt tell but he was holding My hand. "Honey?" No. Not this. Dont do this. Dont try to talk to me. I cant answer cant you see! I cant! Again. "Honey?" I felt the words deep in my being.I tried. I tried to force them up through my throat. Please. Please. "I dont know if you can hear me." I can! I can!! Please belive me. Im listening. "I know i say that everytime I come here. I want to let you know whats going on. You were..." He stopped. His voice comming out in a defeated whisper. Hes crying. God no. Please dont cry. "You were in an accident. Your in a coma." He stopped again and got up. Crying harder. He hit his fist against the wall. "Why am I doing this? You cant hear me. Youll never be able to hear me. Im so sorry. I love you." It was unbearable. Please. Just let me get up. Let me wrap my arms around him and tell him it's okay. Let me show him im fine. Let me tell him i love him. Please, Please. Let me just open my eyes. I clenched every muscle. Bit my tounge. and slowly slowly light spilled in. At first everything was white. A darker figure over by the window. Head Hanging down. There he was. Tears dripping from his face, unshaven. Eyes closed. Hands balled up. Please look. Come on Look at me. Please. Im awake. Im here. Look!! Look at me!!! But he didnt. A voice screaming inside me. silence. It was the silence that was killing me. I love you. head turning. I stared. Blinking. In an instant he was leaning over me. eyes staring into mine. tears falling on my face. His lips trembled. Hands shaking. brushing back my hair. I kept blinking. Look. Im here. It's okay. I love you. He fell apart. Smiling. Laughing. Crying. Head lying on my chest. I tried to smile to. But i couldnt. All I could do was Blink and Breathe.

Immobile

Your stuck, in a huge ocean of quick sand. oxygen being squeezed out from your body. The climax of something fast approching. Youve come to terms with your situation. In some ways your content. You know whats going to happen. You expect it, you want it, but just as your about to go under. Everything stops. Swallowed whole. Legs, arms, everything but your head. You can see, and hear, and taste the grittyness in your mouth. This is much worse. Now theres nothing to do but wait. Wait. Wait for someone to come save you. Pull you out of the ocean. You curse the ground. Why? Why not just be done with me? Why taunt me? Why torture me? Your stuck. But as you look through the tears you see...everything. A sunset casts a fiery glow across the sky. Birds flying almost in a beautiful choreographed dance. Flowers start to bloom around you. Days, Months, Years, and your still there. Taking it all in. The beauty of...everything. Rain falls down upon your face and clouds smile at you. Tree grow and provide you with shade. Flowers still bloom, birds still fly, and all the while your still stuck in the large ocean. Is this what it took? a trap to cause you to slow down, to enjoy, to appreciate. Your finally content. This is the way it is. Your food itches. You cant reach it though. Thats ok, Ill just pretend. Finally. Arms pull you out of the dense wet sand that has become your home. Your feet touch the grass. You can run your fingers through your hair. Grateful you stare into the face. No longer stuck, no longer immobile.

Bark

Rough, like my skin. loud, like my heart. so dark, so wet. firm. Tall. sure.

Ive hit a wall

meh, the creativity has come to a halt. yes. im goin insane. i feel.....grey. bleck. I hate grey. Cold oatmeal. stale bread. Wheres the inspiration? Guess ive just been really busy. *sigh*