It aches

This morning I woke up and my heart was literally hurting. Pounding in my chest, it brought tears to my eyes. Last night I layed in bed and thought about everything you and I have been through. How your such a huge part of my life and how I couldn't imagine ever losing you. I thought about our future, our goals, how everything seems so reachable...it's a while away but not too terribly far. I thought about all the days, even weeks, weve gone without takling and how miserable those were. I thought about your parents and how worried I am that they'll dissaprove of...us. I thought about my parents and how although they have good intentions they just dont understand. Their confused and a little bit frightened for me, thats ok, thats their job. I thought about how incredibly happy you make me and how Ive never, and could never love anyone more that I love you. I thought about what would happen if everything fell apart, that made my heart hurt more. I thought, if everything did, I wouldnt know where to go. I'd still serve Jehovah, still go out in service and go to mettings, but I wouldnt be happy. Id be miserable. Im miserable without you. Im scared Monsieur. I really am. Please help show me what we can do. It's up to you. I trust you.